February 6, 2011
Jana and I drove to Gunnison to see McCord. We have the ritual down pat by now after a year of coming to the prison every Saturday. No metal underwire bras--no gum-- no layered shirts--no revealing see through shirts--no too tight shirts--no shorts or capris if they aren't long enough-no coats or hats and DEFINITELY NO HOODIES!!! No scarves, although I did get through last week with my scarf on. (depends on how picky the guard is at the front desk).
You always have to worry about going through the metal detector...especially if you have shanks in your shoes. ALso your earrings might beep the thing too. (and of course, IF you forgot and wore your underwire bra...they make you go in the bathroom with long unsharp scissors and dig the metal out by yourself...or no visit...or go buy a sports bra at the dollar store down the road (although they are 2/$5.00) and yes, this is experience talking...(of course, MIke's knee beeps every time, so he just takes a stance with his legs wide and his arms straight out ....ha..sometimes new guards are like, "what are you doing?" we say, "ToTAL KNEE" and they say, "OH......I'll get my "wand"....
We saw a "babe" come in today to see her prisoner with a LOW cut cowl neck sweater on....HOW DID SHE GET PAST THE GUARDS??? then when our visit was over, we saw the guard go out and tell the couple to STOP making out and keep their hands above the table at all times and also, "Pull that Sweater UP!" (he also stated to us that she would NOT be wearing that sweater again!"
When we first got in to the prison, it was interesting to see a "first time " grandma trying to get her little grandson through the hoops it takes to let him visit WITHOUT him being on the visiting list. (everyone HAS to be background checked and then be on a Visit list of people who can go visit their inmate--only if you are on the list can you get it!)
The grandma said the little boy wouldn't be coming to visit his daddy again for a year.....and finally the guards submitted and said OK he can visit today. Whew...that was close.
It reminded me when I left for Tennessee and I was the only one of the list that could take Tay and Buds in. SO, Mike and Jana had to bring in a letter from Steph stating that they could also accompany her children!
The guards were telling us how the inmates put all their commissary food together onto a big round table (with plastic down) and they make a "spread". This is for special occasions, such as the SUPER BOWL! the guards said it looks disgusting but the inmates all go back for seconds.
Cord says it is TONS better than the prison food.
McCord said he ordered special food for his birthday and the Super Bowl. He bought two packs of Nacho cheese chips, a little package of velveeta-like cheese that he can microwave (only level threes have microwave privleges to use it) and then he makes "Nachos". He is having his own "special" super bowl party, because he is Jr. Mentor and gets to be in his room with his tv and invites those "guests that he likes?"
He bought a package of eggnog taffy, some flour tortillas, 2 packages of ramen noodles. (they nuke the noodles and drain off the water and add to the Nachos)...
Cord talked about Hope Bucks that he can earn. I don't know if we ever heard of those? But he said you can buy certain prizes if you get enough. If they have a surprise inspection and your room is clean, you get 5 hope bucks. You can order colored pens and
Letter from Cord:
January 18, 2011
Tuesday morning- Had a great day off yesterday and had a good weekend. My parents and Tay came to visit on Saturday. She was sooo glad that I had shaved!
The Packers won. I know that I sound like a band wagoneer, but they were my team BEFORE FAVRE left, now that Favre is done for good, I guess I can usher in teh Aaron Rodgers era. I really started to love the "Pack" again when they played New England and alost won with their back up Q.B. Even though they lostit was still a great game. So "GO PACKERS!"
So, last Thursday, Jack Rader, a guy who is in here with me, graduated and was ready to leave. He admitted that HE was theone who broke confidentiality in Crew Boss meeting. It was a big deal. He was tribunaled and we had the director of HOPE, three security staff memebers and the L.T. It was crazy. He received 60 days RRG. Drama! Rader's an ok guy, he is young and really impressionable. He really just wants to fit in and will do anything to look "cool" or "gangster" even though he is a big dummy.
I'm down to 70 something days. I keep telling myself not to think about it, but it's coming quick and I'm nervous. Alot of unknowns still. It's like I always say, our scared or nervous then you go through the experience and you make it through it and it usually isn't as bad as you thought it would be.
Okay, I don't always say that, it's a good theory tough.
January 24, 2011
January is almost gone and over with. The weekend went fast. A healthy dose of football is just what I needed. the Pack took care of the Bears and the Steelers took care of the Jets. Sorry New York. maybe next year...
I was able to move myself to the back of the dorm. It's alot quieter and it's not as bright. It did tick off a couple of people who weren't as happy as me to move, but you can't please everyone (since Cord is Jr. Mentor, he got to say which dorm he wanted to move to...when he got his level changed back to three and couldn't lay on his bed, from his new bed, the camera couldn't see him, so he would lay down, but not sleep...hmm bad boy)
My mom and Jana came to see me on Saturday. Weeks are going by fast. Really I only have 10 more weeks! It almost doesn't seem real.
January 25, 2011
We had a guy go home, he paroled today, so we had an open bed. It was empty for about two hours. The prison is so crowded that they are now bringing guys out of Maximum security to the HOPE program. There is a guy who just came into HOPE and he has been locked up for almost 15 years. He paroled about 10 years ago and was out for five weeks and he came back with new charges and they gave him his whole sentence. He seems like an ok guy. I can't imagine being locked up for 16 years and then get out. He won't know how to act in society.
(Cord told us that when the guy went in, the phones were the big gray ones with the big antennas on top; they showed Social Network in there and Cord had to explain what Facebook was...the guy kept saying, "Why do you put your pictures on there? Why do you look at your friend's lives? He couldn't figure it out. The internet had just been created to, so he couldn't believe you could look anything up on it and everyone, including kids, knew how to turn a computer on)
Another guy was moved over from MAX today and he was on my RRG crew. He went to MAX 90 days ago but now he is back. He is an idiot and he'll probably be back on RRG.
My parents came in yesterday and we had a good visit. They left at about 4:10 and I was stuck down in visiting for about 40 minutes. I was walking back from visiting and it's really the only time I'm by myself. It's a nice time to think, even though I have the razor wire following me the whole way. My brother came down today at 8 a.m. I haven't seen him for 5 or 6 months. We had a good visit, also. Alot of people don't get visits from anyone, so I consider myself blessed.
(Cord told us yesterday 2/6/11 that a friend in there hasn't had a visit for 8 years. He said, "Does your family visit EVERY WEEK?" Cord said, "just about..." He said, "WHY DON"T YOU TELL THEM TO STAY AWAY?" He said that guy is "institutionalized and doesn't like visits to mess up his routine. Sad. I asked Cord if he wished we didn't come and he said, "No I love it". I said "OK THEN WE'll be back tomorrow for your birthday!!" He laughed and said, "Uhhhh, i'm good for a few weeks..." Mama or the SuperBOWL?????)
I have been thinking what I have learned these last 16 months. There has been alot in my life that I have taken for granted, namely FREEDOM! I've talked about it before, but the freedom I took for granted is something I don't ever want to lose again. It's the little things that I miss: being able to go outside at night, that's a big one. Anyone that tries to glamorize prison is a fool It's the bottom of society. I won't be anyplace ever in my life where the worst people are at, any give time. I'm just glad that I'm almost down to 60 days and I'll be able to start my new life!
We have a HOPE Slogan that we say every morning and at the afternoon meeting. It goes:
I create how I feel, by how I think about the people and events around me.
I am the only one who can change the way I feel by changing the way I think.
I haven't really thought about the meaning of it til recently, but it is so true, that I DO create the way I feel.
Here's a poem:
Why my time comes forget the things I've done
I'm strong on the surface not all the way through
My heart is fragile and you hold it in your palm
Is this real or a dream that you're mine
I've waited my whole life for you to be near
Mistakes I've made that make me strong
Emotions run deep cut to the bone
I'm no longer there I've gone away
Are you lost in your lies hoping I won't realize
between my pride and my promise
You promise me the sky then toss me like a rock
you wrap me in your arms but I still feel alone
But it makes me stronger and I'm glad you're gone.
Dear Aaron Rodgers,
I'm writing, in regards, to all the negativity that I have sent your way. I need to apologize. So here it goes, You're smart and I'm stupid. You're good at football as I am not. You're good looking and I am not.
I'm sorry that I said you could never take the Packers anywhere and that you would always be the guy who was known as Brett Favre's replacement. I'm also sorry that I said your face doesn't fill out your helmet and that you have little skinny girl arms.
Best of luck next week in the Super Bowl.
Sincerely yours,
MTP